Dear 12 year old me,
I am writing this letter to inform you that things will get better. Those angry scars across your thigh will fade, and your wrists will stop being a canvas for your pain. I promise. I know things are Goddamn awful for you, and I’m so, so sorry. You haven’t done anything wrong, I promise.
I know the Bad Man made you scared, but please don’t believe a word he says. You are beautiful. You are strong. You can keep fighting. This is the year he goes away. I know that seems impossible but it’s true, he will never lay a finger on you again. So keep going. Cry into your pillow, it doesn’t make you weak. Get out of bed, I know it’s the hardest task of the day, but you can do it. Talk to your parents, please, you’re scaring them.
In the future you’ll ace your exams (A*’s in Biology, Chemistry, and Physics!) and you’ll go to an amazing college. There will be a boy in the hallway, the one looking dorky and cute, the one smiling at you. Go talk to him. Or just do what I did and get really nervous and make a stupid joke…then run away awkwardly. But it’s okay, because your paths will cross again! You’ll go on a school trip, where you’re sat in a “train crash” so the emergency services can practice rescuing you. You’ll be covered in fake blood, wearing hospital scrubs, surrounded by smoke, and screaming people… and he’ll be sitting next to you making even stupider jokes and being just as awkward as you are.
This boy will make you realise how amazing you truly are. He’ll kiss your scars. He’ll hold you all night to keep the nightmares away. But most of all, he’ll be there for you. He knows your past, he’s intertwined in your present, and you’ll plan your future together.
Your future is filled with love, and hope, and opportunities. So please put the razor down, untie the rope, and look around you because the World is so beautiful. Just like you.
Lots of love,
Amy
(Written for Teens Tell Their Story)
This is really beautiful and cute. 🙂
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Thanks!
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Read the whole thing but ‘dear 12 year old me??’ What does this mean?
And why isn’t this Teens tell their story viewing up?
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It’s a letter to my preteen self, so when I was 12 years old. I don’t really understand what’s so confusing. And when I clicked the link it worked perfectly fine so I’m not sure.
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Maybe there must be something wrong with my Internet!
Oh ohkay I got that it was a letter to you by you.
I hope you’ve come over it..
Take Care! ☺
Keep Smiling!!😊
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Sorry I sounded so bitchy in my last comment, I was babysitting and trying to blog at the same time (not a good idea) 😛 Thanks!
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Nope you weren’t!
Maybe that negative thought made you sound like that…
But it’s ok. You were just perfect! 😀
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Maybe, and maybe I’m slightly grouchy because I’ve only had 1 cup of tea today 😛 Thanks 🙂
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Tea addict,eh! 😉
Perhaps yes..
Keep Smiling! 🙂
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I love this so much! It’s really beautiful and damn good 🙂
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Thank you 🙂
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Beautiful, hopeful, amazing, wonderful words to match your personality! 🙂 Congrats on your exams and getting through so many years of life!!
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Aw thank you 🙂 You’re awesome!
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And woaah.
This is truly amazing 🙂
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Thank you 🙂
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Brilliant post. really brilliant. You write beautifully. I’m sorry you have this subject matter to write about though.xx
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Thank you very much. It’s okay, my past made me who I am today. So yes, I wish it hadn’t have happened. But it did, so I’ve just got to deal with it 🙂
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This is beautiful. 🙂 x
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Thank you 🙂
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Nice..:’)
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Thanks!
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This is amazing! It was amazing to read.
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Thank you 🙂
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Sweet letter, and it’s courageous of you to look back at the pain and the anger and the hurt….
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Thank you very much 🙂
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Beautiful words! honestly this is so good! :))
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Thank you 🙂
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